Thoughts of the unheard man!

Tis' the season

2011-12-15T09:58:00.001-08:00

Tis the season to be jolly

While we take the time to empty our accounts and pocketbooks to do so

Only few remember why they ought to be

And as we take the time to sweep the dust out of the house

and roll out the new carpet

only few take the time to clean their hearts and say“thanks! for that day you came”

you see in this season to be jolly

the folly of many appears in the blinking fairy lights,green garlands and red bows

when true love should show for the appreciation of theChrist that came to this earth

and died for our sins

instead we repay HIM with brand new curtains, a chair setand a new stove for one dollar down

tis the season to remember

to remember the real reason for the season

clean your heart and your mind

Give him your soul and he will give you a whole new life

He is the reason you’re in this season

He is the Christ in Christmas

Tis the reason to remember

That Christ is your first and every season to be jolly

Written by: YaphetJackman

Matrix Mode

2011-09-10T15:50:00.001-07:00

Riddle me this

How dismal is the turning circle on a square?

That has no answer to bare on the surface

But has called a thought to the hair

Running tracks have no signs

Feet know how to take a turn

Bare bottoms pace their spaces

Hurdles know their tune

It’s not the down that matters

Yet it’s the journey to the “up”

With each stage metyou hold a number

One that will be called and tucked

Stand steady... flow calmly through the system

Rings wrapping, card swiping games

Where hands hold you to stop

And white legs free you to go

Read the signs!

They’re all about you...

This is not a dread locked thing

Divine conception of the heart

Tunnel vision gets you sick

Where can you go when all you find yourself doing is readingthe signs?

Makes you miss all that you ought to see

The false sense of being “up there” when you’re really not

When making it to the top is all you can dream

Cause you’re lowest to the low

Stop reading the signs!

Stop being “systemized”

Snap out your trance

And after that you’ll be hearing

We! We! We! All the way home

To comb your kinks to the new beginning

From roots on end

Something about that trend that makes me sick

Make cure for me in my new verse

WAKE up! Get out the system

NY Baby

2011-09-10T15:37:00.000-07:00

Wide itself couldn’t have missed the wanton gaze amidst their lashes

Air drew no ticket to wait in line for the next stop

Brown saw brown to clasp themselves for this time

Nothing was planned for this collision

Song birds wore coats to float on dry air That skimmed thelips of a silent tune

Retiring crickets kicked two more legs just to make the deadspace alive

But why would nature peek at the 11^th hour?

Could no second wait?

Why didn’t fleeting feet trip on the cord that joined these2

Where could the police have gone for this moment?

Sweet agony was in the air but only nature could care

Chattering teeth would ask for smoke breaks

But drew bluff as they’d face the wind every now and then

Stupid twisting and turning would make restless legsrestless

When all knew what not to do but did it

Useless words

Serious faces

Observation ceremonies and pedestrian recruits

All led to the sudden moment that even new brides hadn’t aclue

Fresh breath... now nothing is said

Fresh breath... now all is thought

Fresh breath... now its happening again...NY BABY! That’s NYfor you.

9-4 at 3-9

2011-09-10T15:36:00.000-07:00

So many beginnings to one end

Which starts to form slowly

A knitted brow worms closely towards a plateau

Crumpled fingers live life again

to hear the sound ofa familiar scale

A S D F semi colon L K J

Some may have worried

Some wondering what must have gone wrong

Now time has released that slow potion asking for one lasttime to flow correctly

I think of changing time

With changing pleasure

Like changing season and changing suns

I think of peaking mountains

To flowing rivers

Rolling country to screaming town

I think of where i was

And who i am

Where i’m at and where I’d like to be

But none can compare to what i’ve thought

And what im thinking this is!

The flow of the pen again

I pray it doesn’t end.

Where to?

2011-09-07T23:27:00.000-07:00

there is no peace in the shallow memory of the wandering mind

there is no depth in the skimming root that sups along the dried ground

there can be no texture in the leaves out of crumpled buds that hold no promise

there can be no color in the dreamless sky

for the sake of the seed, the tree sheds age

and for the sake of the age, the seed claims likeness

the ongoing cycle of what must be... and just what is

never to wander! only to dive! only to die! only to live!

there is no peace in the shallow memory of the wandering mind

the morn speaks no mercy

the midday says no prayers

the eve begs no reconcile

dried bare bones of "what is" and "what must be"

dried bare bones of "who is" and "who should be"

the collective of "what not" and "who not to be"

drilling the dried ground to take root to sup on "what should be..."

there is no peace in the shallow memory of the wandering mind

where stars wished to be wished upon and passes a purposeless life

when man can stand shadowless and feel more worthy of their coming hour

as birds sing no song! need less to wake to catch the creeping worm

where life is still...

and still there is no peace in the shallow memory of the wandering mind

where there is nothing to remember as we roam

nothing to learn from...

for peace

as peace

to peace

but just to wonder and wander in shallow memory that there is none to have

none at present and where none has passed

how so does that wanderer seek refuge in the tasteless wind
no seed can bare fruit in sight of him end in the grasp of water
no way can be had and all at once each is chosen
what is and what isn't! who's now and who shouldn't
where can and where couldn't the wandering mind save memory of its dawn

Pause

2011-09-07T23:15:00.000-07:00

"Calm down!"
just the thought of the phrase infuriates!
10,000 times hotter than rays of a single Canis Majoris
gathering suns in grasp of fury to wield its worthy wrath

"Relax" more than rings a bell!
the ear stings repetitively
striking nerve and ego...nerve and ego!

Bid thee free
as words seek to impale you
as you imbibe in share stupor
roasting will in the lips of chaos

wish no action
and pray no sighting while lava boils slowly
rolling over to the hard cold and solid pronounced
heady chatter leaving bloody feet

yet no part is wished in this massacre
no card is drawn to please this growing anger
let it revert to first steps sought
There is no need for WAR while warriors shave knives

in the PROMISE

2011-09-07T20:59:00.000-07:00

The LORD is my shepherd
and what i want is to be led away from what i feel
to take my eyes off what doesn't matter other than HIM
the stare that can turn clocks till still
a gaze that makes a millennia a day

He maketh me to lie in green pastures
he leadth me beside the still waters not only to reflect upon my person
but to feed on HIM and be HIS to work through
to continue to be reminded of his tender mercies and goodness

He restoreth my soul!
right after its failure
exactly at the point of my very need for HE is with me! ALL WAY
nothing shall keep me down when he is there to raise me up again!

He leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for HIS name sake
not for the praise to be mine
nor the look of things after his blessings
flesh can never hold the awesomeness of his PRAISE the glory of HIS work

and as i walk lest i crawl or perish in this world that has now become the shadow of death to come
My GOD's promise is not to fear!
never to buckle!
NEVER to surrender
FOR THOU ART WITH ME!

thy ROD AND THY STAFF they COMFORT me!
and with this promise and stand tall to say today
that i am that what HE says i am!
i am his to protect for i am HIS

this table amoung mine enemies is evident of HIS keeping grace and POWER
in the midst of the storm
MY GOD IS REAL!!
HE'S REAL in my soul

with HIS anointing and HIS over flowing grace upon my life
i speak of things that will SURELY be GOODLY
by HIS GRACE and HIS MERCY
that SHALL follow me all my days

And me and my house and my houses' house shall
SHALL resolutely reside in the house of my FATHER!
MY KING... my EVERYTHING
FOREVER and EVER!

AMEN!

See me - A Yj/MS collab

2011-07-19T20:26:00.000-07:00

Found standing! Staring into the distance of a calm river

I hear the sound of “new” as the sun kisses the sea

so gently.

The waves roll over forming beds in the sea,

and the fishes depart with the hope of welcoming

two beings.

For all is well within but not without your scent that fills the wind;

that musk that reminds me that you’re in tune

with my soul.

I look to your palms for a safe place, as we

advance to a space where we have no control.

As nothing withers and nothing fades

but all is us and we are all.

Melting days into nights in a sweet embrace

eternity is ours.

Still! We must neither slumber nor dim the lights to pray,

instead watch the wind so it does not part us.

And part we mustn’t as the wind stills,

we still shall be kissing gently

like the sun to the sea.

Written By:

Yaphet Jackman

Monique Springer

MAN you ARE

2011-03-08T09:55:00.000-08:00

Even before time begun... you were

You were...spirit

Spirit with God on earth

As he taught you life and its creation

He made you flesh from the mud of the ground

gave you breath and called you “MAN”

Today you ARE...

MAN with God on earth

made in HIS image and HIS likeness

Strong enough to protect

Wise enough to guide

Loving enough to nurture

Tasked with the responsibility to lead us on

On to higher heights and deeper depths

Fathers of the nation

Builders of tomorrow

The Foundation of the family

The Head of the home

WE are... yes YOU are MAN and all of this

YOU ARE HUSBAND

YOU ARE FATHER

YOU ARE SON

YOU ARE BROTHER

YOU ARE UNCLE

YOU ARE NEPHEW

YOU ARE FRIEND

You are MAN

Live in your time

Live among eternity

Provider

Sustainer

Counsellor

Protector

Embrace your role

Embrace your truth

The young look up to YOU

Because they need you

Because we need you

To be a MAN

A MAN... that you are

The MAN you were made to be

YOU are MAN

The system (draft)

2011-02-12T07:44:00.000-08:00

"The system makes me busy...unable to see the right i have to write the blessings to liberate you.

Down with the system is say!! this pen is for YOU!

enough time in the day to let these juices flow

for I KNOW

(singing) "we shall overcome....

we shall overcome...

we shall overcome...this day"

...

The poets prayer

2011-02-12T07:40:00.000-08:00

"I crave another morrow! for there is such sweet sorrow in the night

but in the new day i pray to save one! that they may come to know you...

through me to see the light in the might of my pen...

AMEN!"

Short note_Valentine

2011-02-12T07:39:00.001-08:00

When i snatch you! i'll take out my pen! and with this pen i'll write from 1 till 10! 10 things i love about you cause it's only you i'll call "boo" and when i'm through you'll ask me "snatch me... and snatch me again! snatch me... write me 10 more!" and you're assured i will.. for this love no other can kill. (Mahal Kita GTI)

unnamed "SF"

2011-02-09T17:43:00.000-08:00

In the gentle rumble of the wheeled armour that guards me in the soothing drops of slithering rain

We... I mean I think again of what it feels like to be in sweet trouble within your gaze.

I...life is what grows around me along with my skin as your thoughts travel by and by with each passing wink

I rumble on... ramble on in my head

combating the feeling of ecstasy that glares at me with more than 2 eyes

a body that wears no frown but only smiles at me

a stride that shows no chip but only cuts me slowly

asking gently without words, smartly within telepathy

“come to me”

While I never listen... I always hear and ask myself to pay attention

But I never ask for help to leave this feeling

The grip I sense... the touch I want

Slithers like rain drop on my windshield

Dancing quickly to let me in

I wish no part of this

But sin makes me feel...natural

I look right at the face that meets me

A smile that wants to greet me

A hand that wants to hold me closer than a mother’s womb

As I tempt myself...

Pushing my mind to think that this can never happen

Lying within the arms of something temporary

Soothing kisses of the mind remind me of where I ought to be

As my body yearns and follows with each turn she makes

I wish once to be a babe again

No understanding of the obvious request of flesh

Wishing only to giggle and pass the tide over

Grant me innocence

To see this flesh and let it be

Thinking naively...thinking naively

Love is

2011-02-08T14:49:00.000-08:00

LOVE...

so many things I've got to tell you

but i'm afraid i don't know how

cause' there's a possibility

that you look at me...differently...

and this mustn't be

for it is written...

love suffers long and is kind

love does not envy

love is not puffed up

nor is unmannerly

it is not provoked

it can think no evil

does not rejoice in iniquity, but in truth

and this is sure

it bears all things

believes all things

hopes all things

endures all things...

love... never...fails

And God would say...

let there be love...

for he is love

that love everlasting

not the sting that makes me think you're cheating

its the trust that holds your hand and guides you

back into the arms of the one that loves you

the very one that claimed "i do"

but did the things that hurt you

it is this that love is...

not for the short sprint but the long haul

not for the short comings but the through it all

for this is love and only this can it be!

listen carefully

to the words of the man that gave his life for thee

whose body was broken to make you worthy

of this night!

and the coming day!

to seek and to find

to have and to hold

in sickness and in health

till death do you part

Love your wife as God loved the church

et al, hold on even when its getting worse

it sickens me to see

young Christians caught up in the "willy nilly"

silly to me this is...

for you never loved

to have and to hold

to leave and to cleave

to see and let be!

"Come back to me"

to the one that is...

the love that is...

to the God that is...

The God that is...

LOVE Ever...lasting!

To you (Juggy)_09/02/11

2011-02-08T14:33:00.000-08:00

In pursuit of words to describe you

YOU! being of honor and the Lord's Delight

as the sun smiles...yes the SON that smiles on you daily

You are God's child

being of loyalty, favor and goodness

yes YOU! God in flesh that walks among men

His spirit, His chords

to sing, yes!... sing praises onto his name

you are, YES! you are chosen!

YOU...

you being of love in flesh appearing

always within despair shine sarcastic light

but light none the less

to a heart...

a heart that's mine, that could be yours

a friend that sticketh closer than a brother, a sister, a mother

you are... friend

Friend to me which i cannot replace

Friend to me whom i shall not misplace

Friend with an ear so dear

a heart that cares...

a heart that loves!

You are mine...

to have to grow old if you'd allow me to

if things were different i'd call you "boo"

or would I?

none the less you are the best

yes... you are that best friend

that i'd prefer to have till...

the end

When will your mind go...

2011-02-06T16:28:00.000-08:00

Where does the mind go?

in concentric circles of egos that exist with the flavor of a destiny that's still

where does the mind go?

as bodies feed upon all that isn't and dreams of what can be

where does that mind go?

falling on stars as they fall to break wall of circumstances that try to make me what i'm not

the mind goes...

where none can follow! neither is it shallow to think that it goes where none has ever been

the mind goes...

to no past nor consults the points of direction, but only seeks connection to an upward reflection

the mind goes...

further than the eye can see, hand can touch, ear can hear, skin can bare!

flesh holds no sorrow, winds have no morrow when the mind goes thorough and tarries in

horizons and risen suns and still moons

as nothing changes and nothing circles! and nothing withers and nothing fades...

we're all outside!

we're all outside the box...

like we're all outside the skin!

the skin that bares no evil or no memory of what used to be

that held us back!

yes the backs that bore the stripes of whips and the brands of bands!

where does the mind go?

or rather how can the mind come?

come from the dull drum that beats

the drum that heats in this time that is mine to shine

how can the mind come?!

how can the mind come?!!

Come it has!

the time written in past, spoken in present and sent to future

the mind that is mine has risen to bare the fruit of ones gone before mine

the mind of the wisdom to overcome the dull drum that beats division

to see the future as bright as the day that i live in

to win in all that has been given

to come to bring the mind that's mine as yours!

where did the mind go...?

how did the mind go...?

why has the mind gone...?

it has left to come

went to breath

and is here again to say...

"when will your mind go?!"

Even Within

2011-02-06T15:48:00.000-08:00

And even within the multitude of the saints a lost soul cries.

Baring a smile that lies to everyone

And everyone smiles, thinking "the Lord Bless you!

And Glory halleu!" but it’s not true! It never was!

How can I believe when my brother deceives me!

How can I receive when no one's there to relieve me?

How can I be blessed if I'm stressed with bureaucracy?

How could you be blessed if the leaders are not letting me?

We sit among you, waiting to shine just like you...

Waiting to be released in favor

Wanting to do what we're called to

But this is where flesh comes in

And because of the sin that so easily besets me

My gift is paused but the alter resets me

God and God alone gives me that life

But when I come to church my name's written with the lost in the book of strife

My people! Don’t get weary

This walk sometimes can be kinda scary

This is why you should hear the Lord’s call

And don’t allow your brother’s tongue to make you fall

Life could be hard, believe me I know!

But exposure is disclosure that’s my motto

You could come ask anytime, I’ve got scars to show

And now my life’s a living testimony

For others to grow

To my fellow leaders, my people never forget

We’re the younger generation, apart of this set

You were placed here to show us the way and be our stalwarts

Not to condemn us today and make us cowards

So my brethren! Hear my plea

He has blessed you with eyes so you can see

That the louder you talk in the groups et al

Is the more likely you make the younger fall

Even within the multitude of saints the lost soul cries

The lost soul cries with dried tears in their eyes

Look around you and you’ll know!

Just ask the holy spirit to guide you, and he’ll show…

Random Track

2010-12-16T18:18:00.000-08:00

Take my hand and dance with me

hear the rhythm of my mood playing

glide with me... let's make music together

Soulful play as records spin

that rich sound that resounds

our bodies interplay

We loop forever, as you take my hand

and dance

to the beat that just might never end

glide with me...let's make music together

with each step

our feelings grow stronger

we stare deeper and hear hearts that beat together

taken fro tracks that sound eternal

take my hand

match my steps

feel my hand

sense my flow

glide with me

LET's MAKE MUSIC

together

Puppeteer

2010-12-05T20:07:00.000-08:00

where crossed strings meet, i no longer wish to hold them

nothing can return the pure hands i once had

where hearts played with just feelings of joy

and freeness of what was... not what may brew

where strings were white... filled with cotton softness and purity

not filled with blood...not filled with tears

where crossed strings meet, i no longer wish to hold them

hanging sleeves, daggered hearts and broken wishes

hang heavy on these... strings... that... stain my hand

when eyes roll rivers, and mouths scream storms

when hearts stop beating, and thoughts grew cold

where records stop spinning and tunes go off key

the world stop swirling... all because of...

where crossed strings meet, i no longer wish to hold them

for nothing is a play, nor a scene, nor a frame

when no one can recognize themselves

when they can't stand on their own

this hand cannot hold the weight of it

carrying a league of "pieces and shards"

only collecting bad memories and scabs

shoulders have grown weary

eyes have dimmed grey...

when did this all start?

these hands no longer wish to stay

Till it hurts...

2010-12-04T17:55:00.000-08:00

where goes you...?

and why do you go when i call you...?

how long would it be...

and when would it ever stop...?

I give you....

the things that can never be sustained in this life

My will is....

keep givin' and givin' and givin'

Self says to...

all way it does, but i never listen

why run to...

just stay! keep givin' and givin' and givin'

some crumbs too

even when right i'd swallow

pride says to...

but i'd keep givin' and givin' and givin'

and when all is wrong

in light of red and dark nights

sea winds change course...

turn cool right after

Stay calm you...

you'll be torn right through

but just smile...

i'll keep givin' and givin' and givin'

Frustrated, zero rated

heart's racing, pain chasin'

bone chilled, life stilled

but guess what... i'll keep givin and givin and givin'

till there's no more

when one day you'll know the score

when simple things get complicated

and you wonder where they came from

when one day that bulb will blow

and you'll wake in a dark room filled with gloom

thinking it was all you....

ummm ummm you ain't been caring and seeing the

givin' and givin' and givin'

What just happened?

2010-12-04T17:41:00.000-08:00

and when its all said and done...

you're still alone, thinking to yourself

"what just happened?"

Disappearing in the wink of an eye

periods cannot rest in the wrath that builds

the once warm spirit freezes over

No one can understand

no one can say! they cannot see

it just disappears

without a trace a switch is flipped

carried cross over to no wonder

but share anger...

No return for a friendly follower

a chilly shoulder sheds ice

and stabs fear right into your core

but no one understands

no one can... warmth just disappears

shallow...very shallow seas wash

the whirlwind spreads further

every soul in a frenzy

because no one can understand

no one would know...

what has flipped

what has swung

"where is everyone?"

...alone and unrecognizable

you turn stranger even to yourself

and then you think

"What just happened?"

In response... (S.I.P)

2010-12-04T17:36:00.000-08:00

"S.I.Pin and R.E.M's"... while stretching my hands forth to a spirit that's a person

the one that stands but never believes where she is, or where she might be.

While suns dream... earths collapse...

all heavenly well but no earthly good

while days go by and we've not passed "go"

i'll dream with you

in lifetimes apart...but we're still together

I've touched a stone that has a heart

thinking about a part of me that drifts to your world

and as it goes, i go with it

watching you evade me...building dams that can't hold your sea

but maybe that's best... where...

we meet in dreams unending...

where our eyes first met

where her touch I've felt

where a birth can be had

where obstacles just make us dream more

we're all the sunshine the earth needs...

dream with me...

Blank stare

2010-09-10T08:38:00.000-07:00

Within that blank stare
You never know what it really, truly means...

Within that quiet still posture
Several deaths at a time
The heart stops and restarts again

Bodies contemplating the unfairness of life
The un- seemingly shallow hope
The painted face that has none

Just a statue!
A pillar of despair...
The world no longer has colour within that stare

The heart cries
And no one listens
No one can, but that soul that sobs with it

But all seems well on the outside
From the "looks" of things nothing could possibly be wrong

Just another beautiful lie
That holds tight to breath
Not even wanting to release it
For that is all they have to own

No longer in control
A tear seeps out beneath shaded eyes
But again! No one see's
no one cares!

Just another beautiful lie
That no one can figure out
And everyone takes for granted

That blank, colourless, hopeless stare...
It means something!

One to another

2010-09-09T21:41:00.000-07:00

like a switch
it all changes from love to hate
or is it hate to love

changing lanes
no instance of regret in first steps
sudden tumbles throw us down and make us ugly

its the ego
the drift to make the push faster
the channels never sync after lost contact

remembered more
but couldn't care less of what you though
didn't want to go on with that

"were" now "not at all"
perfect lovers stricken to perfect strangers
the pride inside holds our hearts together

we'd look and still ask
"am i remembered?"
"i wonder... if i'd..."

never again...
only in the light air we'd probably exchange words
words that meant more than the wind that carried it

only then we'd know how we truly forgot
what we wanted to feel
one for the other

but it hurts so bad
it hurts so bad to watch you wonder
watch you wonder away

its got me buggin'
would these memories ever fade
or would they stay...

The dreams we live to be together

2010-09-07T19:44:00.000-07:00

In the still of the night I hear your heart beat.
Nearly ticking to the rhythm parallel to orbits.
Outside of this world in the time of another that waits for you...

With each passing second
Your heart draws closer to the time you both shall end to tick as parallels
But to start to tick in unison, making time instead!
Making worlds in spaces you breathe upon

Resting your eyes on each other...
As time ticks and ticks again to try to end
We step into eternity to start once more!
Where time is no more and new memories unfold together...

In time, to tick in line, to tick... Forever
Isn't it clever...

The dreams we live to be together

Vowed to poetry

2010-09-04T19:07:00.001-07:00

they tried to take you to get to me!
how else would they have known what can kill me?

they know that we're together!
they know that we're one!

they've tried to pull us apart!
but it's the pull in us that brings us together

"no matter the weather..."
remember!
that's what we said in our younger days!
when i first met you...
"too young to know, but too old to care"

lady you define me!
you even refine me!
my lines within you breathe...
...you complete me!
and i am forever yours

you are like no other!
no one can match you
without you by my side
i will relapse boo!

poetry i adore you
you are my special lady
and now you've found a body
that's drivin me more crazy

just like i imagined
what i wanted you to be
with hands that are beautiful
and lips that's sticky

ummm...
"poetry and me! we shine together
me and poetry yea that rhymes much better"

but no matter what comes our way at all
its by similar last names we'll both be called

although they've tried to come between
My queen! we've come through clean

so through the rain
through the heat
through the lightening
through the thunder

any man tries to dis you!
he made a big blunder!

through the rain

through the heat

through the lightening

through the thunder

since we've joined together

we'll only part six feet under

Cocoa butter

2010-09-04T14:16:00.000-07:00

Smooth n' tight...
everything a mother would love and lots more to choose from
sista's got the right swagger
the right mix of suga n' spice and all things nice!

baby's movements are pronto
wouldn't want to get it twisted tho
mami's got the sharp attitude with pretty moods that'll make you giggle

lips so sweet
she's pretty and neat
she'll hit you with a heart attack!
cause baby's got mad back

she's too much to live for
brother might kill for her
she's got that loyalty on simmer
sista cocoa butter

thick and quick to make your heart melt
you'll never know where she'll take you
trap you in a box called "boo"

but never mind that...
she's the cat you're after
in sorrow and in laughter
keeping you in that honey gaze
pushing hugs by surprise

she's too smooth
too memorable
the sista that stains you if you don't treat her right
or keep her right
forever under your skin

Cocoa's loveable
huggable and powerful
grips you in all the right places
and keeps you sane in the purest love she gathers

Cocoa's better...
that cocoa butter
cocoa butter...
she'll love you forever!

For your eyes only (F.Y.E.O)

2010-09-04T13:43:00.000-07:00

i saw the full moon within your stare
gestures of oblivion emanated from mine, in pity of you
we were about to sail.
To be the embodiment of sheer ecstasy

the wind blew right
the sand between our toes gave us the sense of reality...
but not for long

as the wind blew
it swished the scent i most enjoy about my nostrils

already intoxicated by your aura
i gulp every drip of you
carefully holding my glass...
i kiss your neck passionately

with passions gone crazy
we rock in the constant swing of our orbit
we both grip tighter into our bodies
drinking crazily of passion and shared thoughts

dripping beads of due love
boiling blood and racing hearts gel within lips

softer and softer they became
while wondering hands greeted strangers that were twin
welcoming them to make them comfortable with a familiar hug and squeeze

your hair rhythmically brushed my face
causing my skin to grow among other things
i yearned for your touch

i drank you more!
causing my head to spin and feet to float
sending me "heavenward"
being melted into you with each passing second

we wildly danced the dance
like there's no tomorrow
i sank myself further in your stream of dreams and warmth
feeling nothing but high within you

constantly stroking... your hair!
to evoke that scent that makes me weaker for you
causing the rise of affection to be unbearable

as we glide on top seas so smoothly
riding waves to meet its peak...

my ear twitches
awaken from the world i held as my own
wet... and... sticky...

For your eyes only!

Roller coaster

2010-09-04T13:12:00.000-07:00

Carried and tried on a track of more uncertain leadings

Feelings flare over and over and over again...

but this is kin between 2 friends that were not alike

one day up, next day down

deepest ditch, highest cloud

away and away...

that's where my heart goes

away and away within a fight to stay leveled

no equilibrium held steady

like a passing thought...

there goes our laughs

like a blowing wind...

there goes our happiness

steady for about a moment

one can hardly remember what they were

what is felt like...

or how much we cared to be in its embrace

we try to find where the passing wind escapes to

where it bundles to cry

where it stays, not wanting to sail again

that place must be magical

where sorrows are none

and laughter is eternal

but where i am...

where we are...

is a constant turn and tumble

i fight to smile

u do the same

and how did we start this fight again?

we always never know...

Each day...

2010-09-02T13:52:00.000-07:00

i grow stronger in the nuances of your voice

grow stronger with the silent agreement and the nod of your head

Wielding power in great words

as they circle my mind! I'm pressured by my pen to praise you!

And shout it from the mountain tops

How does flesh prevail just after sin?

to write an ode in honor of your name!

where does sin go? where does guilt go in your eyes?

you've died in vision of seeing this day!

that moment, that move!

before this pen meets paper to say...

"I'm Sorry!"

Before these eyes are closed to say...

"Forgive me!"

Rinsed in water, cleansed in blood!

you revive me! and make me new again!

to sing again!

To make me sure again!

and to see me walk in you...

with you...

because i need you now more than ever

to make me stronger!

WISER!

to make me...

ALIVERRRRR!!!

More than ever

2010-09-02T12:11:00.000-07:00

Its now more than ever that strength is needed.
Now more than ever that odds must be made even
No place for insecurity or suspicion
The place for faith draws nearer and nearer.

Its now more than ever
Where destiny calls! And ill will is planned to befall you.
Where obstacles are hurled to detour you! Possibly wreck your future.
As steps draw closer to golden gates and lofty heights. Closets burst with dark shadows and lurking memories of gloom and doubt

Its now more than ever that I need you by my side.
To keep me resolute and steadfast
Where all effort will be in you, with you and for you
Its now more than ever Lord!
Now more than ever that I'd need you...

Never enough

2010-05-30T22:06:00.000-07:00

It has not come to that place of satisfaction.
Nothing can suffice

At will and in danger of an insatiable appetite.
Wanting more and more

Need not consume
Living on the company of a thought
Just the illusion of having

The more you do, is the more nothing is done!
The eternal play is left on loop
Adding more and more to the plate of life

Nothing has satisfied
Nothing can satisfy!!
Feeling empty as the feast swells larger

I can never do enough
Always wanting more of myself
Searching in a bottomless pit
In an endless quest for the end

Never enough!
Enough is never
Yet I thirst for it

Only to know it cannot satisfy
But yet...
I thirst!!

Alone

2010-05-26T20:56:00.000-07:00

This will have no bearing on feelings still
Alone at will with no return to warmth
Bashful, crazy memories haunt us

Slipping slowly back to rigid emotions that pick away fear
Staring right back at "happy" times that grew no fulfilment

I'm locked in the cage of my own heart
Running mad in the sorrow of pent passion
Spewing to love again with no weight to carry

Scared of my own love that consumes worlds on end
Where has the world gone! Pushing me to the edge of a cliff

Give me wings so I can soar in the height of no return
Too far gone! I won't give love a chance

Monk to me and me
Alone to be
To be alone with no one to call my own

As the heart cries no tears
Alone!
Alone I will be with my emotions
Alone to dream who that will be
Alone... With me!

Fallen no more

2010-05-23T22:41:00.000-07:00

Fallen off your own
no one to turn to but the shadow alongside you
no one to pick you up and dust you off

fallen off your own
no one to lay blame on
the entire room is empty with you and your thoughts that blame "YOU!"

fallen off your own
drives your ego into fury
makes your spirit sick and cries

fallen off your own
kissing dust and being swallowed
a shattered shaken miserable soul

Fallen!
doing bad all by yourself
dreaming problems just to feel better

making enemies of loved ones
breaking hearts and feelings to live on
feeling stronger in the belly of the beast

Swallowed!
wallowing in the company of despair
dressed in shards of broken emotion
no friend to identify the pieces

Alone! Fallen Alone!
tripped on your own ego
popped off your own head being swollen
gettin high on the air that you breath

a duplicate of yourself
you try to double the numbers
making everything negative your friend

rolling with renegades
feeding the sharks of fools
growing, getting colder everyday

Fallen!
in that quite moment
that small still voice whispers
"Get up"

Awaken!
shaking from the daze
can't live with your mind anymore
silence is too loud a call on your ear

the voices all scream at you
tugging you back
pulling you back
rushing your memory of the moments you've shared

how happy you seemed in blindness and misery
contemplating the mix of things
tryin to split with things

Risen!
no longer on the ground
now happy with no frown
only shining with that crown of laughter

Thinkings of back then are no more
Fallen! no more
Fallen no more!

Calling

2010-05-19T21:55:00.000-07:00

it calls deeper...
within the clamour of mixed thoughts and voices
it calls deeper

one can never escape the destiny to which it was created for
neither can a man out run his shadow
the more you run, is the more it clings to you

it speaks clearer...
in silence it screams echoes
churning all that was once alseep
caressing the longing and emptiness that swells

sooth yourself in my arms
let me speak to you
drink my voice
let me carry your sorrows

I call for you!
you hear me call...
be not confused! be not ashamed

i've called you for such a time as this
where all rides heavier
the entire world shakes
yet you hear my still, calm voice

Call to me...
listen to my voice and call to me
tarry no longer for i wait for you

your booming mind, and thoughts that chime are distracting you
hear me call! i call for you!
i've called for you, i'm calling you, i will call you!

stretch your ears and grab my words
until you stand steadfast
in the power of my might

call to me...for i have called you
for such a time
such a time as this

Inside, out

2010-05-10T09:53:00.000-07:00

you can never hold the east and the west together
its either or, neither nor

straddling the worlds of good and evil
can cause strife and triumph
the balancing act of being here and there

eyes and dreams will dim in this escapade
rolling thoughts make you wonder
straying away, away, away...

the air gets thinner in the atmosphere
you cannot breath its too mixed
nothing is still everything’s' a blur

clutching hands about your neck try to bring you back to life
impeding the feelings that boils over and over
the entire room is spinning outta control

too many things bring memories
memories of where you don’t ever wanna be
the best of both worlds can never be had

Heavy on my mind

2010-05-09T16:31:00.000-07:00

Within and only within these hours
Would the sun set on my heart

My eyes cry no tears before this season
The running thoughts stride for the sun to hold its decent
Wishing the days drew longer

Her slipping soul reached out to me
I slipped further in despair

Covering my heart
Drowning myself in false love
The painless momentary

Never can one forget how I felt to wake to no sunrise
Opened eyes to the bleak bleak winter of my empty soul

I cried ice blocks
My hung head dropped heavier
Where my boy stalled in no warmth

The thoughts came back in the sun…
Chilling my spine and my emotion
I can never hear the ray of sun in her voice

My soul echoes…my soul hallows
My soul cries as the sun sets
I wish I had more time to love her more

To heed the cry of her slipping soul
R.I.P (E.F)

Piece by piece

2010-05-08T21:18:00.000-07:00

Where... How...
Too fragmented for likes of normal readers
Too broken! Too sparsed!

When it goes... The mind itself rotates
Wind and "wind" put motion together seeks peace amoung tree tops
Why...? Gone too far!

Will make no sense of this
Mixed emotions, played feelings, changed characters
Want this! Need this to be a "shordy"

No inspiration that's worthy of my pen
Done with you... Till help comes crawling back
Gone... Gone...Gone

Too filled to make sense
Fragmented!
No Space to claim a Page

No space!
No space for new
No not new you

Oblivious, Oblivion

2010-05-06T07:36:00.000-07:00

Walking with a burden that was never held
gliding on a tight rope that's as wide a canyon
in this state, there is no pain
only oblivion

many days saw her hugging her thoughts
sleeping with her imagery
arguing with the mirror
walking in his shadow

she wrote letters that were never posted
blew kisses that were never blown
fluttered without leaving the ground
in this state, there is no pain
only oblivion

She took his face everywhere
pasted it on every fling and voyage
smiling to herself in words it spoke on the shoulder of another
digging deeper and deeper in her world with him

"when will i ever tell him?
what would i ever do?
how would i ever love him?
where will he know it's true?"

now the time has come
"where has the time gone"
"i thought you always knew?"
...

you shared some many days with me
you slept so many nights
i thought you always knew...
that i.... yes... I
Love you
...

I always walked without the burden...
without the burden of her love
without the knowledge of her glare
without the terrible of her stare

with ever step i took
it was away i strayed
strayed in the arms of another
never...knowing...hers

though you've held me, i've never felt your arms
now she's gone
with me never knowing
in this state...
I'm still Oblivious

I'm Sorry, but it's good now

2010-04-28T09:28:00.000-07:00

I hadn't any clue that it was this complicated to leave a comment on my blog. I've only just realized it!!
(and nobody even told me before… :S )

Well that's fixed now! And I hope I’ll be seeing a whole lot more comments now that I’ve fixed it!

Thanks so much to the people that persevered and made sure they left a comment. Thank you so much for sharing.

I'll be doing a whole lot more now, I think I’ve broken through my "mental block" so just expect more poetry and thoughts from me in the coming future.

As you may have noticed, "I've changed my pen a bit" but it's only for the benefit of all people everywhere, big or small.

Thank you so much for your support through the years, and yes! I'm working on that book! :D

Until...
Leonidas

The written release

2010-04-25T19:47:00.000-07:00

The "written release" sends you further than the cosmos
gives you wings, sets you free!

That's where i wanna be
every time i write or rhyme

never wanna place that period
never wanna let this pen go

on and on and on
till this pen slows!!

and even then! i'll let my mind go
writing on the window of it

i could never get enough of this
sheer bliss in this word mist

Always goin up!
never comin' down to the ground of no creativity
it's sin to me not to think!
to me that's a catastrophe

and any country or plain that doesn't give you this claim
it's a travesty

Don't cling to me
if in poetry or prose you can't sing to me

You'll be blind in my eyes
if in these words you can't rise

you need to come up higher
you need to come up higher

make music with your thoughts, there's nothing wrong with that
there's venom in every line, that you can counteract

the punk in you
and every living thing that makes you blue

the rhyme in you!
all you got to do is let it rise in you!

It's no surprise! it's true
you too can gain the peace
in the written release!

In due season

2010-04-25T19:22:00.000-07:00

With seasons changing
the world turns another day
slowly drifting into another unknown era of time

"What comes again?
if nothing is new under the sun?"
yet, lives and experiences are all born

The old grows weary
withering themselves for the greater good of the earth
giving back all energies they've borrowed

"But why has the wind changed?
where has the sun gone with this turn?
why does the day darken?"

The world is sad...
unfamiliar things are now friends
it must learn to start all over again

"But why has the season changed?
why must the old wither?
where am i to be familiar?"

Nothing left but to spin and wait
wait on patience and time
lest the sky falls in anxiety

as the world turns slowly...
slowly does my heart shed...
slowly i transform with the season

For nothing is new under the sun
i've lived this time before in spirit
but i've gone afar in flesh

Now i seek recourse
finding memories within my meditation
craving directions in my hearts' walls

Turn... and let me be
Turn...and... let me be!

Whatever in whoever you are

2010-04-25T19:12:00.000-07:00

The abundance of my heart cries
soulful ballads ring in my veins
wanting to love you more and more
afraid that if i confess it, i would cause it to manifest

I know my words!
i feel them everyday...
there's no great control i hold
than the mold i hold in power
the strength of my letters

I need not confess!
but i am in love with you
whatever in whoever you are!

i beg my heart not to cry
but i must be strong in spite of...
I can only cry with you!
'cause You alone know me

Whatever in whoever you are
i need the me in you!
I've tried to lock myself away
but this is innate

I will run!
maybe never return when i do
But i'll always love...

I cry to grow calm
not to let my lips utter your name
it's driving me insane, the pain i've caused

But i'm looking to a deeper source
hopin you will too!
my mind goes 'round and 'round
cause i can never figure out... "you"

whatever in whoever you are
Hold yourself for me
one day i know i'll do it myself
because it's destiny

Praise Lines

2010-04-09T09:47:00.000-07:00

"He shall pour out his spirit upon all flesh"
therefore my spirit glistens and smells of sweet smelling myrrh

Clad in his glory
Casting darkness away in steps that are ordered

This temple must proceed to proclaim his name
it is not to be found crippled or lame
Lurking in lust or wallowing in shame

Many are the plans of a mans heart
thinking thoughts that are as sharp as darts
"I don't wanna go back, from where i had to start!!"

Only through searching and reading his word
have i heard his plans for me
he walked the journey and bore nail scared hands for me!

He and he alone is worthy
and for this i sing in poetry

for he alone can understand
the words i possess in my hand
to turn them into praise through phrase

TO worship him in spirit and in truth
and to deepen my roots in him.

to flourish for man to see
his wisdom in my pages of poetry.

Simplistic

2010-03-19T09:38:00.000-07:00

The lessons of life are told within the simplest of language
the construction of straights and curves
speaking only to the principle at hand

it is not the verbose collection of adjectivals’ or antecedents
rather in the fluent construct of imagination and potent words

painted imagery in the mind of the orator
fragmented speech, gains volumes of knowledge

framed in peasantries, clad in simplicity
the mouth of wisdom shapes plainly in sight

the life we live is simple
but it's the curiosity of understanding that clouds our judgment

the system rolls onward
while lessons go unlearnt

that is the complexity amidst our simplicity

Inadequate

2010-03-17T11:57:00.000-07:00

Intimidated by sounded air...
vibrating chords that bare no malice or rebuke
twists the ear of the timid listener

Shaking eyes and crying hands
gears go round and round
wrapping itself immovable

nothing has happened
but all is wrong...
trying to find peace in troubled seas
"why?" the question brews within
but no one can answer

enemy to yourself...
all steps taken forward are always reconsidered
never sure of your movement

mere breathing more normally
the gaze of a plain face
speaks volumes to you own idiosyncrasy

no world has ever pronounced...
no being has ever confirmed...
yet you feel inadequate?!

No Flesh

2010-03-12T07:15:00.000-08:00

In the beginning there was me
without an ear to hear or an eye to see!
Mentally, it was to be

In the beginning there was spirit
Never "spare it", but respect it
for it is in it i live, move and breath

So to begin with, i never heard you
i thought you...
You never heard me, but you felt me
I can never say...
for i never spoke with lips for you to understand
but with the utterance of my "word"

These things i can only do in flesh
and flesh i am not!
You can only feel me with it!
within it i live, move and breath
within it i have my being!

It is not your place to see me!
that is, what is before you...
"Evidence of things not seen"

That's what you must have to speak to me!
without it..."you're dead!"

Let it occur to you, whenever you become!
"i am only spirit!
you are not if you want to hear me speak with lips of flesh!!
the spirit leads and advises"

Feel the spirit of my words...
the words...are your beginnings.

It is her i want Pt.2

2010-03-09T07:22:00.000-08:00

I'll speak of her forever
for every breath i take it's in her

I seeketh her forever
for it is her i want
the answer to all i've questioned
i pleaded her, never to hide herself from me

Chained about my neck, she has locked my purpose within her grasp
fed me fingers of milk and honey
caressed me in incense, frankincense, and myrrh
clad me in velvet robes trimmed with gold
and taught me tongues of old

her sisters cared for me
insist i stay betwixt her love
"My son, attend onto my words... seek her diligently!"

she has led me to my master
revealing all things unto me which is his will
she is DIVINE!
Holy and full of life
My staff
my comfort
my constant companion

"Length of days is in her right hand
and in her left hand riches and honour
her ways are ways of pleasantness
and all her paths are peace

She is a tree of life to them that lay hold upon her
and happy am I to retain her

She is mine...
to have and to hold
for richer for poorer
in death we'll never part

I'll speak of her forever
for she is wisdom
WISDOM is she!

Mustard Seed

2010-03-09T07:10:00.000-08:00

In light of the spirit...
spirit growing with the fear of the world
not conformed but existing within...

Seed like...within itself...within...
in core of the spirit...
feeds on waters that run deep

In caves of the globe
around principalities and 'strong holds'
lay dormant men that chase thousands
paired in power, one accord...splits Hades wide

In core of the flesh
runs blood 'twain', chosen either...
holds to find one master between...
black and white in 'grey'

Seed spirit grows in words of light
sprung wet and potent through words within my bosom
flesh dries more, grows cold in heat
as coals heap higher to harden my bones

Hide it within your folds, lock it amoung your verses
cause you wrath to hedge my soul
within your wings
within your shadow

As flesh withers
i am your friend
as flesh withers
seed spirit grows mighty within "HIM"

The Human Condition

2010-01-12T05:27:00.000-08:00

In confusion... we as men scurry to find answers
involved in the "wanton" struggle towards perfection
by all means do we seek to find what we cannot

In confusion...we strive to know who our accusers may be
suspicions drive hoards of questions to plague the mind of peoples near and far
the stampede grows more, while waving the flag of our pride..."ONWARDS!"

In confusion...we seek to bare no shame
hold to no reason to believe we are accused
forget the past and masks we wore to dance beneath the mud

In confusion...we are children, arrogant, ignorant and soft
baring malice to those who we love; but in our eyes "offend"
scheming mind games; to whom may lose and whom may win

In this season, we're more lost than found
murdering the only thing that held us in such times
the trust that so easily betrays us...
because we've never truly trusted

That is the human condition.

My apology

2010-01-08T12:14:00.002-08:00

“Shoulda never left you”
Cause it was you I’d run too…
In my mind, all the time
On the grind, as I whine
It was you…

“Shoulda never run to…”
The things that would hurt you
The lying, deceivin’ and schemin’
That was never you boo!
So why did I do…?

“Shoulda never maimed you”
Cause I disclaimed you!
Misplaced you, disgraced you
Now I’m here for part 2

I always knew it was you…
That carried me and married me
Made me happy and carefree
It was you that was by my side eternally

Now I need you to take me and make me
Twist me and shake me
So we can be what we used to be
Poetry and floetry
Mo’ a me and mo’ a we!
Lovely and beautifully
Mo’ an you and mo’ a me
Mo’ a me in poetry

You know!!!

2010-01-08T12:14:00.001-08:00

As much as you may think that I hate the best bone in you…
It’s the opposite!!

As much as you think that I’ve hidden; I’ve acted beyond plain sight
As much as you thought I was acting; I did it thinking I’d protect you!
As much as you think I don’t care; I care too much to see you cry again!

As much as you think I am hard; I’m putty within a shell
As much as you think I don’t think; my mind is going through HELL!

As much as you think I don’t miss you!... I DO!
And as much as you think that these are just words…
They’re the words that would get through to you!

As much as you think I’m away! I ALWAYS THERE!!
If the memory of what was is worth as much as this page
I’d write this poem again and again

Because for as much as you think that I’m cold as stone
These words would always stay here
To point your way home

Silent tears...

2010-01-08T12:12:00.000-08:00

Silent tears fall the hardest
They are the salt of despair seeping slowly beneath your heart
Rendering it lifeless…

Each beat slows its pace
Beating deeper and slower
Deeper and slower…
Until it stopppssss….

….eyes behold its last glimpse
Silently a tear drop falls
Rippling in the sea of the unknown
Spreading to its last…

No one knows!
No one will!
Happened in isolation…
Silent tears…

Hidden

2010-01-08T12:11:00.000-08:00

In the darkness rolls a storm
Rumbling to and fro about
Searching endlessly…
Simply craving

In this rustling thunder
Lovers find peace between eyelashes
Never blinking as it all unfolds
Within the stars and moons above

Creeding, pleading
“come for ME!” I wait for you…
Even betwixt the storm covered sky
Admist the rolling thunder
Your call is clear…

It goes unheeded…
That call leads souls to one fork in the road

Call… call…
Call…clearer…
That your voice may be followed
It soothes and linger in the air,
That unclear scent in the fog and mist
Till morning comes again
Your voice lingers
Bitter…sweet…
Voice

The gap to fill...

2010-01-08T12:10:00.000-08:00

It’s the dust that forms pleasure and pain
Dust that brings bloodshed and shame
Can anything good come out from among dust?

Bone of my bone, flesh of my flesh
Barely holds my hand and yet makes dust melt

It’s the dust that defines us and the rib that carves
That “hollow” that haunts and always seeks to be found
The space that yearns to be filled even by one unworthy

Within the emptiness and longing
Winding between the spaces were the hands that held the time
Stolen moments froze the warmth of previous lifetimes
Never forgotten, just suspended as my heart burnt with jet fuel

Found but lonely
Rediscovered and scared
The floodgates have cracked in the opposite direction
It’s too late to defend
Watch the waters flow

Torn…
Every river has two banks

Black Ink

2010-01-08T12:09:00.000-08:00

This secret will no longer be
no longer should it stay within in the ink of my pen
you will shed no tears!
you salt and wet were cried before by another and my pen

You will not be appalled
for as you read within the lines the message will sing between
You would've heard this before
No! you're ears haven't deceived you
but they have excused you

You had to have heard this within you skin
within the deepest cave in your mind
without saying a word, you'll react

Almost like telepathy, you'll read me
maybe within an epiphany you'll never forgive me
but this secret is for you to see not hear

The words can never be uttered
our hearts i'd wish not to shatter
for this secret is as black as this ink
deep as my thoughts and ugly as sin itself

This secret will no longer be
and after....maybe not even "WE"

It is her i want...

2010-01-07T11:29:00.000-08:00

Begging to kiss her lips for the first time
time was clear and eternal for that kiss to happen

Begging to touch her hand and have her embrace a charcoal soul
a soul that can soar with the God that has made it strong

Begging to look upon her face,
to stand within her stare, to be washed of all unknowing

Begging to feel her love, the warmth of her touch, the sense of her...
Wisdom

2009-12-26T06:00:00.000-08:00

Within these walls lies a stone
A precious stone, one that has never seen the light of day.

A lost soul guards it beyond the walls
Carrying it with its body

Light beams pulse its core, striking the walls to release itself, lying useless for too long, craving its maker to look about it splendour

The stone is filled with shards, dripping want for ones touch...but no one can

Its guardian sob with each strike...
Crying within, needing only to free such beauty to the world

But sobs further to know its beauty cannot survive in such a cruel cruel world

Must this soul carry this stone for the rest of its days.
Carrying heavily its beauty like a burden
Hidden from the sight of the world

What must give to have either live
The soul reached with its core
Holding its beauty for the first time
Withstanding the pain it cause, the soul hugged that precious stone

As the soul bled, the stone grew softer
As the soul bled, the light was revealed
As the soul died, the precious stone turned into a flesh heart, beating and living to live

Touch my soul, that's what I need to be a heart again...

Never

2009-12-20T19:59:00.000-08:00

All has been given
Nothing left to share
The deepest love is selfless
Even while in confusion of its own forthcoming

Though all is gone
The emptiness resounds
Filling nothing, lacking everything within a strange, sailing vessel

Lonely amidst the thousands
Even within the arms of another
Straying thoughts blend pain with joy
Sparking hung smiles within minds
Never to be warm again

Through the wind
A scent reminds the flowers to wake within its passing
Never has the wind nor the scent passed
Seasons change
One going, one coming
But the transition is not that of the easy nor for the faint in heart

Too much has been given
Much is lost
Never to be regained
Never was this to be...
Never was this to be...

Wants and needs

2009-12-17T16:20:00.000-08:00

Wants are needed, till wants are had
when wants are had, it's then wants are questioned!
when wants are questioned, we wake the answers to wonder
while the wonder walks, we watch them wean on our wishes
wishes that wash our minds so constantly, we make them reality

So we believe the need...
the need to need what was once a want
that want turned need, is now no longer wanted!

But why?
we couldn't live without the want
the need we wanted! Where has the want went?

Truth is...
we never need the want
But it's the want that needs us!
The want that needs us to wean on our wishes
wishing itself to be a need...
because it needed to want...

It needed to want to be a want!
for wants are never needed...
and needs should never want

Mirror

2009-12-17T16:13:00.000-08:00

In the streak of light that shines upon you face
i see your eyes that tell the story within me
I am your mirror!

It seems it can only be written from my pen, what i am and what i could be
i could never exclude myself.
I am you mirror!

So much of you is me
so much of me is you
I give and reflect what i am in YOU!
because i am you mirror!

Take a good look
what you see is what you get!
i cannot be anything else but reflective
i am you mirror!

When you speak, i repeat...
when you look, i look back...
when you come, i return...
I AM YOU MIRROR!

This may never change...
it's like out growing your shadow

This is not even a poem
these are words that will plague your mind every time you think about getting rid of me...

I am...and forever will be...
YOUR MIRROR

In short showers

2009-12-17T16:09:00.000-08:00

And so the rain came...like a washing memory
singing the verses of the incomplete rendition
"Where are you?!... Why must you be so far away?"

The tune silently dies...leaving Goosebumps and a certain longing
"Why aren't you here?... i need you so!"

The rains are gone...but not you!
not the feeling i hold for you!
not the longing i have inside!

in the coming rains
i pray it is us within its showers
and when it dies...it will be you left with me

Say it

2009-12-17T16:04:00.000-08:00

It must be said, for it is felt!
No longer can on bare the pain in doves eyes
nor sip the wine of thy lips in marvel

It must be said, for it is felt!
ones mind is not made to bare the secrets of the heart
nor feel the flesh of one so warm and hide their sentiment

It must be said, for it it felt!
the heart that beats in unison with one so receiving, so willing, so caring
beating to the sound of love, dancing to the tune of happiness

It must be said, for it is felt!
That i love "US"
I love "ME"
I love the "ME in YOU"; I love you!!

This must be felt, for it is said!
That you feel the same...?
You must say, if it is, you feel?
and it must be felt...that which you say...

Let it be

2009-12-17T15:52:00.000-08:00

It has begun...
The road on which i dared not to travel.
I tried to look beyond the image in the shattered mirror,
"Why?" some ask... i ask "why ever?!"

The broken dreams of some are the missing shards to many's fulfillment
The essence of things that may never be, build the unfinished fantasy

I adore you!
But even in adoration too many mysteries prevail
The road in which i dared not to travel seems natural

The surreal touch of things releases the thoughts inside
Winding its way to my conscience
plaguing my inhibition

I wish not to understand...
I prefer to live...the breath...
the moment of condemned freedom...
just once in my lifetime.

The Confusion will escalate!
The days will melt to nights then days again...
But one thing is sure!

The dawn will come!
Like two after one...
it WILL come
And i will be there to see you through

Be it side by side
or me left behind
LIFE WILL WIN!

So let it proceed...
let the road unwind...
For it has begun.

Unconscious

2009-11-18T09:11:00.000-08:00

This word now gleans new meaning. It’s the sense of things you know but deny.
Suppressed ideas of yourself doing things you don't display.

Conjuring moments we favour as fantasies, dispelling time we hold as our own
stealing eternity and making it a slave about our goings.
Unconsciousness holds us ransom of the reality we wish, but disown.

This state wore green to give it texture and context within dim lights and tinted glass. Spewing mist and haze in the air, taking senses to another level.

It was not the pure sense of things; its “naturality” couldn't be ignored
its eyes grew fuller and brighter, unintentionally enticing the room
Hugging every sense and thinking gently; mildly coaxing the deeper self.

Scented scarlet lengths took the wind, capturing the willing, the unthought-of...the unheard of...kissing it so softly, so gently as though to gel with the wind forever.

If this feeling were people!
They would be warm and damp...clinging madly to one another
Riding this emotion to a boil
Gripping it with leading tones, in complete disbelief of such a happening; but oh so willing to have it happen again

Its texture became a tone, then a mood...no a symbol.
To go on and on, further and further stopping time with its hands in the 2AM traffic

Unconsciously doing all that was thought, dreamt and imagined.
It was too natural to deny: To real to understand...it just "was"
Moments took the dreamer to the summit. Freeing its gentle vice about its body.
Falling further away from denial, drawing closer to what is now "known" and no longer "Unconscious"

in thought

2009-11-05T17:30:00.000-08:00

Confusion never cut so deep into my flesh
burning even my marrow...
I’m frozen in pain

I once guarded my heart from all villains that were once in search of it
but now I’ve released the life string

I cry silently, showing no sorrow for the loss I’ve suffered
the very loss of my soul!!
all gone in my head, are the memories i once held dear to me
replaced by wonder and discomfort, no will to go on, but just "to give in"

I’ve suffered this faith time and time again!
maybe it is my time to surrender...
to sterilize my heart, mind and soul with the press of that "restart" button

Forgetting the attempts I’ve made to get on course
erasing the pain I’ve caused and many received
renewing my heart and my love for "you"

But life does not offer such luxury!
this is the "black and white" world
No matter what you do...
how far you may go...
how much you may say "i love you"
Pain is pain, and it will always be the same

I've guarded my heart...
i feel none the wiser for letting it go again...
and now i remember the pain...
The pain i feel...
the "feel" i feel inside

"Will i ever love again"

Crying words

2009-10-27T20:54:00.000-07:00

In the eve of my darkest hour
I write to you my love
bringing to bare the fruits of my labor, my thoughts and my love.

For it is not the moment we first kissed
Nor the moment we first loved
but the moments we grow within it!

Cast before me are the shadows of dim
the worries of yester-year
and the grey of today.

But to you my love, i write to seek peace in sorrow
to you my love i write to draw you near
even nearer than memory

I wish to write your tender touch within my palm
or to write the feel of your lips on mine
to write your close embrace of warmth about my body
or to write the feeling we have inside.

In the eve of my darkest hour my love,
i wish it were not you that precedes it
nor you that brings it!
nor you that abounds it!

Within the eve of my darkest hour my love...
i wish to dispell it!
i seek to find the light inside
i fight to keep the love alive
and write to you my love...

After...

Evol-her (Love-her)

2009-10-01T09:25:00.001-07:00

Evolution is inevitable, enough so that I am eternally grateful to the great I AM
For the time broken from eternity to create breathe; you and I

We have, ridden the clouds of time
Fed on the fruit of dawns
Evolved and evolved through centuries
But one thing has never changed!

It is the key to life and blood for all humans.
The string that gives art to exsitence
It is that of love that never changes

The patient one, the kind one
The one that never withers, never staggers, never fades

It is this I wish to hold between us
The common thread that binds our flesh
The one thing that cannot change amidst our evolution...

My love is immovable, though troubled
It is ever shining, though shrouds come clamouring to cover my rays that you may not see
My love is eternal, and is to be had by you eternally

Evolution is inevitable! But the only change my love would have is how else I learn to love you more!
To love the life you posses
To love the life you create
To love the love you show

My love is sustained by eternity and the great I AM that has broken eternity to create Love!
My love!
For you and I

Silver ink

2009-09-28T21:24:00.001-07:00

It is the darkest of times, the brightest lights emerge.
Even in the bowels of sorrow and pain, the happiest joy is birthed.

The writers cage tightens, as all is no longer well within his mind.
The canvas has gotten rougher, resisting all mediums suggested.

The still small voice becomes hard the hear, the thuds and bellows replace the peace within, sparking embryos of dark seedlings fighting to burst forth.

The ditch is at its deepest! Voices rake the dulldrum feeding error to further continuance, further scraping the residue testing my core!

No longer can this persist!
No longer can tears beyond the stars rest as dew betwixt my locks
The constant rhythm rides!
Ya! The rhyme chimes but no line has been found about this world

Cast thy self about the clouds
Write the silver that lines them
Heed the call, lest the rain fall
And fall they will

If the world revolved on me

2009-09-22T09:11:00.000-07:00

If the world revolves around me
I am therefore my own axis!
God of my world.

If the world revolves around me
I am therefore the ruler and authority
of all that lives and dies in it.

If the world revolves around me
I am therefore creator and sustainer
Marvel and wonder maker

If the world revolves around me
and you are not invited in it!
therefore you are DEAD! to me

If the world revolves around me
and you happen to be caught in the world wind
live in it, adapt to what you see and hear!

If our worlds cannot co-exist
it is my nature to consume yours for the better good
for yours not existing with mine, waste resource i need to survive

My world is ever changing, ever rolling, ever spinning!
In centuries of decades, i call the spirits of right to share my world
Some turn upon my power and are cast beyond the darkness

If the world revolves around me
never would you have been created
never would you have seen
never would you have turned to tread the soil of my earth!

Never profess to give me such power of the world
for i know the world doesn't revolve around me
because you share air with me!
For in my world...that would never be!!

Odyssey

2009-09-16T13:36:00.000-07:00

I fear the scribe of love...
for scrutinizing eyes await my letters.
the window has spread it's light upon my page

I fear the cold of dark...
one crippled by it's consuming vacuum
in absence of an ear to utter my whispers

I fear the light the day...
the illumination of all secrets i once hid
now rides the rays that peer through the sky above and beyond

I wish to live the light...
transparent to every soul that beholds me
ridding myself of the shades of black and Grey
that discolour my mind and tongue

spelling...painting...impressing...
the isolation of my spirit

I'll live the life of light...
through periodic trials that line the road
the straight and narrow

Even in the light of adversity
my quest is set and resolute
that my words, thoughts and deeds ought to delight
and not ensnare

Uplift and not discourage
Praise and not blaspheme

The light of life dares to be
stretching, welcoming embrace
lending it's strength to the weak

Even from the "guttermost"...
i lift my head in light of hope
to be that light for one alike...

End this season

2009-09-16T13:21:00.001-07:00

i seek to quell your confusion...
to answer the may questions about your head
to lend my hand momentarily to bring your heart rest.

Love was once a game i played...
no rules but mine mattered.
I strive just to hear you say your into me!
that's when the stakes grew high!

"My heart never begins
but always ends!"
Intentions never conjure; until the stage is set.
My patience always grows; and grows weary with time
Time i slip after time and time
till time is no more.

No more does my heart evade me
but more my heart tries to save me...
for never does it lead me; to where i really should be

So now! My heart wonders
for what's left of it.

You're not irrepairable
time brings healing,
but evasion with forgetfulness brings a miracle!

I am like the seasons...
Periodic like the waves that washes the shores
Heed the guidance of the stars never believe the moon

The overwhelming light blinds your sight
from the stars that plots your journey

I was a season!
Much like spring
But even flowers have withered
to birth new bloom and petal

"Sprung may not be the same as yesterday;
but spring will return! Inevitably

i sought to quell your confusion
my hand lent to guide thee free
the door and key is before you...

This season has ended abruptly
for thee and thee only
and YES!! it's not easy...nobody said it would be

this spring has ended
and the new spring unfortunately won't be...

Perry 18

2009-09-16T13:02:00.000-07:00

Can i lend it!
If i ever had! I may have!
I may have lent if without getting it back

I speak of my...
My...smell of a scent in the room
and my thought about it!
Coupled with the skin upon it!
and the clothes that wear it!

Can i lend it?
can i ever get it back?

I speak of...
the body about it!
The taste that goes with it!
The desire the rises from it!
Coupled with the figure around it!

Can i...lend it?
If i ever did...would you keep it?

I speak of...
the feeling about it!
The peace among it!
the stare from it!

Can i...smell it?
and if i do one more time...
Could i resist it?

Confession1

2009-09-06T20:03:00.000-07:00

It is one thing to have you!
it is another not to...

it can never go unnoticed...
never go unsaid...

We say we love! but do we really?
has it never pricked your mind, the moment those words leave your lips?

we say we can never live without! but haven't we?
so if we do! why is it so so so hard to hold onto..." "

where does the greed grip?
"I know! why do the questions drip!"
but think upon this...
"can I make time for another?"

My heart aches!
thinking is just as worse as doing
dancing with the devil
bound by wanderers

Words escape me...
"Why?"
because they can...

what I’m trying to say is...
"I’m learning everyday to let go...
and that's all you should know..."

TRUST ME...

Thinkin'...

2009-09-06T19:51:00.000-07:00

Floating...
The wind dances among and about your....

Swaying...
a feeling I’ve never shared with you!
simply cause time and space never permitted

Mixed...
Added feelings of this and that, moves and stops
Apprehension and intention

Patient...
feeding on the absence, racing my blood for "hypes" and "highs" sake

Starving...
Absence is not enough, gripping on sheets and flesh in my head
pulling my locks to fight the feeling...going out of my mind!!

Drowsy...
holding my breath and exhaling only to catch slipping life through my nostrils
where have i gone with this...?

Thinking...
Ever so constantly...
....
....
....
....
....

Mahal Kita

Rolling

2009-09-06T19:37:00.000-07:00

In the stillness, trouble lurks
some thoughts clash in mid air, searching for a place to rest it's restless head
Like a bird flying in a room of blue, circling in what may seem to be sky
finding no way to call "out!"
That's how the gloom and blue surrounds you!

Where the impressions have been made, apologies have been served
Time and time, over and over..."SORRY!" just can't do this time
Peering into eyes that can never forgive...
the body was breathless, emotionless, unresponsive

What does one do?
How does one start over?
If time could've been reversed...
I'm afraid you'd still be in the gloom and blue that surrounds you!
This time, renouncing "3" instances that had mutual sentiments

Where can one go?
When can one get off?
Believing in destiny still, but can we never make this go away?!

Erase the records, just play erase
wipe it clean among your thoughts...
Go opposite!...Just ROLL ON!

The Speechless poet

2009-08-25T19:57:00.000-07:00

The many moons and suns have melted on top of my head
Locking my memory towards the day of all days
I length…the loss of breath and sound beholds me!
The day that has melted and formed no speech

The final steps are single
Flowing graciously amidst fashioned trees
Lined with sanctity and purity
The smiling bride blinds me with her glow

My locks play strings to sing the melody of memory
But stuck to strum only one…
A sharp…flat…mute chord
That will never feel the touch of music

No words have gathered
No thoughts conjured
The speechless poet is in awe of time

A priceless moment awaits me
As my words escape before my heart stops beating
And the lump emerges in my throat
As tears shale my lips to a shiver
But still!! No sound is made

As the tear may fall
It drops only to silently say…
I…
WISH….
IT…
WERE…
…

No words still! While questions linger
But just awe! And more awe!
Silent…very silent!

Etching upon the tablet of my aching, joyful
Yet subtly hurting heart

My gift is quiet, humble and teary

The silent, speechless poet will write to many morrows
In ode to risking love for mud
In warning for young lovers

Speechless…
but written for speeches of others

I give you my voice in word!
Speak for me!
Speak for the speechless poet!

My want...my plight

2009-08-17T19:57:00.000-07:00

Confined and convicted
I stood among the piercing eyes
Of those who accused me!

The hazy shadows of gleaming eyes
Rusty fingers and growls of argue
Quickly blacked the light of hope
Hopping about my head

The mist of fury crawled against the ground
Clutching my feet; numbing all leads of escape

Cruel winds chill my spine
My skin imploded!
Shooting blister like a freak rash spreading all about

This was not catered for!
The consequences grew rapid
Banking into my space

The hazy shadows drew closer!
All eyes grew wilder! Greener! And brighter
I heard the nuance of my own voice…
Ringing like mass bells!
Growing louder and louder in my ear!

I cast my sight through the mist
And saw a hand clutching at my head!

Falling to the ground heavily
I see repetitions of my demeanor
Millions of “me’s” snatching at my body

With each pull, they tear my flesh
Making me weaker

The demons I swore I renounced came 7 times stronger!
Boxing me about the cloudy field

My angle of untold secrets
molds of cunning mantras
patient vows and malicious lies
all in want of what I took…
“Flesh!”

My sickness manifested and fed off itself
Finally attempting to kill the disease that has rendered me helpless

This is the plight of the wanting man!
Lying silent for the blood of virgins

Drinking deeply from broken cisterns
Accuser, judge and jury of his death sentence
“My want!!...My plight!”

Imagine

2009-08-17T19:36:00.000-07:00

Between the halved door
And the bat of her eyelids
10,000 images climbed the window
and rained hard blood while raising the dead

All at once; that image wreaked havoc…
Nails like no iron; sparked fires beyond infernos
Splitting mud wide open,
Streaking soft expressions of sweetness
Dictating love letters all over the back that sends the pressure

It’s the silence of the language
that grabs and grips the essence of speeches
the bud and the bee finds harmony
in the scent of sunrise; even the softest of rains floods the deepest desires.

So she’s painted again!
Over and over again

Some in skin; some in fantasy
The body! Never touched with hands of flesh

It’s that feeling that’s so real
All in the head across seas and rivers

As the planets align
Heavens ride the rings, birthing many more moons and rivers
Letting pure nature flow
Enjoying every drip of sweat that falls from the brow

As wonderers soak the air of anxiety
and wait among the clouds for silver ribbed rings

so is that pause in the time
exhaling loudly, when reality
fills space and all will be had

Through the eyes of Jah

2009-08-17T19:35:00.000-07:00

Through de eyes of Jah!
We stand as one in another
Unveiling the secrets of life in its true form
With daily expressions of love.

I hear the message clear as loud brass
From the heart of Rasta!
Creeding for peace despite our colour

Joining hands with another
A united body towards the future

Look post wraps in culture cloth
Be not distracted by the scent of my levity
But feed on the words that proceed from my mouth

“Unity! Peace! Love! All equals life!
GOOD LIFE!
Drop the hyphens and let’s depend on one another
Find one another in one another
We are first humans before colour
First spirits, before persons
First understanding, before divided!”

The message burnt the ears of all in the room…
Sinking further and further down to consciousness
That core that forgets race and emulates truth
The basis of humanism and social consciousness

The revolution is looped!
Like a broken record to get you
Stuck, stuck, stuck, stuck, stuck, stuck, stuck
On the message of change

Let’s race forward and not apart
The words from the lacks of a head of grey
Soaked as oil upon my Maine
It was the message, not the messenger…

From the mouth of Rasta!
To the heart of diversity
Understanding in one accordTo share and change from the mouth of multiples

Powdery Sweet

2009-08-17T19:34:00.000-07:00

Powdery sweet
Flavoured honey like beads of…
Rest upon the brow building up to break the dam of hair to scent the cheek

The caress that holds no hands but hugs noses…
Foreheads brace to mix the powdery sweet talcum

Kissing stares adds fun to the memory…
“Tonight is good night!”
Quietly hearts beating in unison and all is well…

The Cluster

2009-08-17T19:33:00.000-07:00

The cluster of thoughts births hope and revelation
The twins that grow about you…
This was supposed to be poetry
But it’s more like a journal entry!

Nothing profound comes to mind!
Just the truth and fact of my feelings
NO! it’s not gonna be a chronicle
But w window in which I jump through to release me!

The days melt into one another
As I allow myself to float away!
There has to be somewhere I’m going with this
And I hope I’ll get to the point real quick!

But if you don’t realize the feeling of me
That’s jumping at you with every word!
Then you’re just like me!

The cluster of thoughts birth hope and revelation
The twins that grow apart

Those… or should I say these words
Seek a revelation and hope the birth of thoughts that are not clustered

Angry

2009-08-17T19:30:00.000-07:00

I’m angry…
I’m tired…
Why waste what you got…
Settle for anything, just trying to get by
Because things lil’ brown

I’m angry…
I’m tired…
Spoiling the populous cause you stopped dreaming
Whatever happened to the fight I put in you
That conscious that speaks right

I’m angry…
And I’m tired of your sorry ass keeping people in the Stone Age!
Encouraging their ignorance and spreading it like wild fire!

What happened to the teach?
What happened to the dare?
What happened to the consistence?

I’m angry…and I’m so… so…tired of you old timers!
I ain’t gonna paint my face and shake bones round a grave for nobody!

What’s dead is gone!
Learn from it! Build on it!
DON’T…….. LINGER!

I’m angry and I’m tired
Cause we know better! And would do better!
But not for our own!
The colour of my skin and the twist of my tongue can’t budge you
cause you think I can’t do it!

EAT THIS!! My top hat and jacket
with straight pants and leather shoes
was lost in the airstrip I used to come back
to teach you the plans they use to enslave you!

The words they use to make you think you’re ugly and dumb and stupid
The food they feed you to slow you down and sit before the idiot box
to kiss their asses more and more!

I’m angry…and I’m tired!
Cause you’re not listening to the message I preach

“Change your eyes! See the light!
It’s not rebellion… just empowerment for the better good of all generations to follows…”

I’m angry! And I’m tired
Tired fighting to teach you
Tired choking you to get it all through your thick skull

I’m angry and I’m tired cause
I would’ve scared myself to much
To stand when glory comes!

I’m angry…cause i may die angry
I’m tired to even hope for the change
Still I live…In light of being happy
By angering others to carry this message on!GET ANGRY!!!

My mind 4-5/7/09

2009-08-04T21:22:00.000-07:00

Our irresponsibility as a people is the noose that draws ever so tightly around our society. The mere fact that we know the perpetrators and henchmen that drive this country to its knees, lending to the debt unborn generations will have to pay, serves testimony to the fact that we do not care any longer.

WE! (the people) are the ones that builds up and breaks down ANY and ALL norms, fads, trends, governments, and societal expectations, world wide...
THE PEOPLE are the masters and these aforementioned are by products or even servants!!
The moment things go out of sorts, is the moment we forfeit our posts as custodians of the land,
settling only for temporary gain, and everlasting reprecussions through our actions...

Must we live on like this?! Blind bats, scampering at every sound that's made, flying in the other direction of the light.

Are we going to re enslave ourselves, maim ourselves, and isolate ourselves, thinking it will do "them" harm?

We've survived as a people, the hardest times and the toughest seasons!
we've been able to learn from our mistakes...there's nothing new under the sun!!
The people united, is the driving and holding force of a free and fair society...

Words to think upon!
There will be martyrs!! no one has ever been born knowing their faith, but it is decided upon as time progresses
The other hand that helps to clap, makes the difference! not the idle mouth that is quick to persecute.

No longer does the colour of our skin divide us...but the allegiance to a symbol
This nation MUST see the death of many, many that are needed DEAD!! many that were never supposed to die, but rather would've died for the cause of a better GUYANA...

The time draws near...TRIBAL WAR awaits us
I urge you!! "Make it right with the father!"
Numbers will fall...and yet again GUYANA WILL RISE!!

The Fury of stupidity

2009-08-04T21:18:00.000-07:00

Lived to condone the fury of stupidity,
steering down the barrel of coming death
grinning foolishly to this demise

Spoken words that lends no comfort
intending to steer the rudder of the lost on stream
instead paving the runway towards a fast and slippery hill

Unimagined actions manifest
proceeding the calm of tongues!
what a way to go...
further down...

Never did we care?
inside we did, we made us what we are!
Lonely in the arms of the other,
even distant in the lips embrace

But for a time, this sonnet plays on
the melody once sweeter, dies down in tempo and tune
strings go missing...chords peer off

This love!...this music that has been undone
fuels the mystifying fire of lust
burns the unconsumed flesh
chars the blackest of skin...

i wish the ashes of this fire...
the charcoal of this fury to paint you the brightest day
Monotone! to resemble life itself...
Light and dark...black and white...Good and evil

To fester repulsive forces
to disintegrate perceptions and false promises
to remain steadfast according to the cosmos

To never have to look life in the face
and be sentenced to death eternal
to escape the fury of stupidity

Back Black

2009-07-30T22:14:00.000-07:00

The tears of my forefathers woke me...
Constant bawling after whips of fury cascaded their backs
squeezed in piss and blood, nightly meals of feces served out of my great great great great aunts bottom
Night mares became dreams,
Death would pass their soiled hands
already bound in shackles

the humm of the blood drum; as it comes to a bubbling simmer
beneath the sea floors, where many found peace at long last
as distant fury raged on! in the hearts, minds and eyes of this trades survivors...

Momma raped dry of her precious jewels
scourged repeatedly, till she falls to her weaken knees...
"But it's amazing how we never die!"

Some 171 years ago...
white met black eye to eye
set us free!
Made us lose!!

Tell me!
are we that blind to see, that chains are no longer slavery?
Massa seh: Give them their bodies; but we keep their minds!
Simple matter resolved!!

Massa knows the strength of the black hand
The joint unity of love in us, drives fear to his core!
That's why he hides our face from one another...
consistently beating the war drums amongst our own
gnawing at our culture, and home

selling us the fancies of foreign worlds
teaching us the mother lands tongue
brain washing our expected generations
deliberately leaving out history, so they become as white as them!

But this is not a sad song
nor is it a rebellion call!

This drum my brothers!
This drum my sisters
is a melody...
that will play softly...
beyond time, beyond this world
"Do suh!..nah like so!"

Tek wha dem teach...
hear wha dem preach!...
Learn it!
and use it...
FOR! NOT AGAINST!
To rebuild our empires!
To groom our young...
To be black again, not by shade, but by plan

Take my hand...
We goin back to the mother land

The first time

2009-07-13T21:39:00.001-07:00

It was that first time
she could never quite get that feeling
No matter how much she gives it up!
Repeating the same strokes and positions
the feeling just ain't the same as the first!

That first time she was forced to lay and not disobey the commanding voice over her
that first time she found out where things go as they grow!
and how hard life can really get!

that first time she didn't hop on a roller coaster!
bet felt dizzy just the same!Screaming and gripping at everything thing in her reach
"I wanna get off this thing!"

That first time she got that filling sensation on an empty stomach
drinking the juice of sweat and spit!

That first time she was flung and hung
bounced and rammed all over the room
and bleed from one cut

It was that first time she'd never forget the scent and colour of violation
the squeeze and grip of platonic love gone wrong!
The grin and eyes of her bother leaving the room...

It's the first time she layed there...
the stillness fills the room..
silence deafens her and knocks her senseless
never to return again!

It was that first time
she went in search of it
trying to get her worth back...
she had to find it...
The only way she can come clean again

that first time turned dozens and scores
defeating all whores, cause she's queen bitch with a ROAR!!

But it just wasn't quite the same!
LIKE THAT FIRST TIME!
that cynical love that tripped her unconscious
There had to be another she can contain and make him make her back!
Break her back! Slap her back!
Jam her back to that first time...

Addicted to pain; that's worst than cocaine, she numbed herself...
Grooving to the rhythm of life as the tune is stuck in her head like a broken record!
"AH! AH! AH! SHH AH!"

It's since 15 that first time!
now 25 throwing another one down the drain...
never can she maintain her own flesh and blood because of "Dick - Shun"

It's that first time she longs for
time that can never be repeated
she'll always be mistreated till her breath is no more!

It was that first time he took her soul away!
she never thought he'd do such a thing
Now! she's at his door...
"YES!! the pretty little whore you've made me"

She grabs him; knife in hand
"take me back! Give me my soul again!"
He trembles! his shoes get wet...
looking into the eyes of a wonderer near her quest freedom

it was that first time...
"AHH! AHHH!! AHHHH!! shhhh ahhhhh.....
that record played to the end...

Confucianism, 1 Ching Great Commentary 1.8.6

2009-07-12T11:19:00.000-07:00

"Life leads the thoughtful man on a path of many windings.
Now the course is checked, now it runs straight again.
Here winged thoughts may pour freely forth in words,
There the heavy burden of knowledge must be shut away in silence.

But when two people are at one in their inmost hearts,
they shatter even the strength of iron or of bronze
And when two people understand each other in their inmost hearts,
their words are sweet and strong like the fragrance of orchids"

From..."2"

2009-07-12T11:08:00.000-07:00

Another form of expression from a friend of mine!! thought i'd share this one as well...have fun read this voice...[Leonidas]

A stare that'll make you "cum" if you dare indulge
a smirk that'll keep you wondering, begging for answers.
the journey to a man's heart is sometimes cold and lonely,
strange and you gotta stay holy!
For the best of them, that is! if you truly want the best,
better than the rest.

Sweet his lips,
tender his eyes,
slender hiw frame
and affirmative his tool
He could make you drool for the best of him...
but leave that for the rest of them and just conquer
The test of him!!"

From...

2009-07-12T10:58:00.000-07:00

This is not my writtings, instead i was just the inspiration for the writting, (or so i was told) thought i would share it...enjoy [Leonidas]

I really can't stand the likes of you,
your chizzled face, your bright eyes, your horrible lips
your cocky charm, your egotistical upright stance
your confidence, your gentleness, your weaknesses for pleasure in sight
sound and touch

YOU! i can't stand You...
Yes! You
You i can't love you!

Pretender

2009-07-11T17:44:00.002-07:00

You know you know me...
you trips on your own ego...
your stiletto heels get wrapped round your own expectations...
then you strut your stuff across the room lying to yourself;
the fact you never saw me...

But it's ok! i never did see you
cause you never existed to me

You know you know me
you chip on your own swollen head
your curl only serves as your own hindrance
trying to "glance and miss" the fact i'n in your line of sight
Not being the first to say anything!
but you wanna be noticed!

But it's ok! i never did see you
cause you never existed to me

You know you know me
i know i know you too...
two can play that game!
i'm not losing anything when it's my turn

But it's ok! I never did met you
cause you never introduced yourself to me

You can never escape me!
i'll always be there!
your actions is just smoke and mirrors
But i am that mirror that shows you who you really are...

I wish i weren't your reflection
...pretender...but it's ok! i wish i weren't me either

Water and Oil

2009-07-11T17:21:00.000-07:00

It was the eastern glow of the twilight the ever so gently calmed me
Amidst the gibberish, glamour and game
i found solitude in the shadow that lengthen with my pen's stroke and roll

i stretched my min to shade my face and my fear
timidly seated in a corner in open space "not the best cover for seclusion"
The brown of my eyes rode lines only steadily distracted by all the gibberish, glamour and game

"There's no place like home!"i thought!
"Oh SNAP! my shoes ain't red!" what a disappointment

Try sitting in a benhab where the whole world can see and not be seen!
ignorance is bliss...

Hidden completely in pages and ego
pretention and trying. dumb insolence and no intention to mix

Basic water and oil theory! though water has deepened in oil...
covered by it!...living by it complexities

The great escape is the window of the mind
strolling in the world you create. god of your space
Universally all knowing...straying the best of you

I love pretenders...i crave their moods and attitudes!
they never hurt to study, they only serve to better me...
Locking through their fantasy facade living the good life...

The shadow stretches and dims and fades like my thoughts about the page...
i'm both water and oil
and i was never timid!!

Black Wings

2009-07-11T17:10:00.001-07:00

Black wings on the winds of your aura cylindrically drifting on this natural high
fading to and fro; hither and thither
feeding off this incess

Misery holds company
speaking rhythmically in this space that once lived
asking permission to hold you forever
to lay there motionless in the black wings' haven

Ever floating, ever sailing, ever roaming
mounting on the winds of your seamless flat line
The road that leads to no morrow
today! your last! FOREVER!
Black wings...they hover!

I pray for life...for death is addictive!

2009-07-04T13:34:00.000-07:00

I pray for life...for death is addictive...
"Sanest?"
Some may differ...just the mention of those 5 letters cause many to shiver

It’s all around us...
yes! death! it is present

I beg to live and never break the rules set before the foundations of the earth
When we were spirit and perfect! just not yet made manifest in flesh

How can one see and not touch
touch and not lust...
Lust and no pursue...
Pursue and not remember
remember and not revert!
I pray for life...for death is addictive

Not even thinking...
eyes met on separate carriage ways
she bluffed her way through everything
attracted like a mate in heat;
sour flies to state food...
about 4"7' maybe 5ft tall

Death wasn't even attractive...
but weird to the normalcy of life
share shared curiosity
i knew it was addiction; but it came clad in tight jeans and dark skin
wavy hair and lazy eyes,
short teeth and a lisp

Carried on intuition
death lost it way and asked me for directions...
i knew nothing of calamity till then

i could've strayed it further
but i left it follow
i paid deaths way to the bus park

"could i have a picture?" i never imagined i'd save the thought...
You see...the metaphor of this short story of present history
is that death is the decision we make from right and wrong;
light and darkness; heaven or hell;
real or unreal, believe it or not
I pray for life...for death is addictive

Guards drawn down; but senses high!
death and i sat together sharing no conversation
Spirits react to innocence as a babe joined the ride...
death smiled and asked to play with it
the father let the babe go

Death thought the babe to talk
after bumping it's head twice to the bus ceiling

So calmly the babes innocence prevented further destruction...
a thousand angels stirred around
poking death in the face as it tried to speak in the babes ear

"This is not right!" the baby thought
reaching to deaths heart with his ear...
he heard nothing like a melody just a long lasting, never ending silence.

The young boy raised an alarm and stretched for his father!
death no longer held his hand

I pray for life...for death is addictive
not attractive, not reactive but existent, never distant.

Death is obvious and many times unexplainable
like these words that have joined on this page
No details and no strings attached!
I pray for life...for writing these are...

Inhale

2009-07-02T11:00:00.000-07:00

Inhale!
I've taken in that scent, time and time again...
The scent of a hot iron on old sheets almost burnt but not quite there.
That scent, coupled with sky blue walls, a bed to the corner braced to the wall away from the door. Lined with a small table underneath a louvered window, with white lace curtains to hide what's within.

This room is where we sat...
Sudden lovers, sparked from silly conversation. Though sometimes serious
Her unassuming smile hid her heart and feelings towards me well.
I never could tell what she really wanted?
Lucky for me her uttered words held my hand and lead me right to her love source

Inhale!
I've taken in that scent, time and time again...
Avon roll-on and body spray
Twisting my senses round and round
like that of the towel about her naked body.
The temptation was ever so subtle, ever so real
This room is where we laid...and laid alone.

The full moons glow peeks through the glass
somehow reflecting on the mirror on the opposite side of the room
the only light that fondled our bodies
the scent of passion is endless!
mixed with that of slightly burned old sheets, Avon roll on, body spray and damp towels

INHALE!
the scent of sudden love, moonlit passion and fear of unsatisfaction.
This cloudless night, where the moon's just right, invites planets to align!
constant motion, of time in space, slips and re-enters
quickens and slows...
Inhale, exhale...Inhale...exhale...INHALE....and......
Hold it with both hands, tight knit and a wrenched face!

That's a scent I'll never forget, and will never have again
for parting is such sweet sorrow.

The never ending story

2009-06-30T09:04:00.000-07:00

They were scattered! Somewhat clueless of what's to come. Trying to stay focused on the task ahead! But it was their eyes that confirmed uncertainty.
They were out numbered! Knowing full well that they were stripped of their voices...but our shade never took it from them. It was their own blood.

Growing up... I mimicked them, folding their styles and behaviours in my skin and brain. Despite my colour, my voice and attitude was theirs. I did it to be accepted, i did it to grow and to be recognised. I did grow...beside them that is...and I realised how much of them I wasn't. I saw that we can never be alike! But we can and did coexist.

Back to the previous story, they're three of them now, amoung eleven. How timid they seemed, but we were total strangers. Lending them only hands of welcome, but the fear of their ancestors gripped them. Probably old bedtime stories around curry and nasty fingers flashed in their heads as they looked into our eyes. The eyes that are always filled with grey, but lined with silver peering at the small light we call "hope".

I stared right back at them, questioning their inspiration and why I pity them. I'm angered!!
This daily injustice we all face because of our ancestors. Why the division? The silent animosity? The expected demise of our heritage?
I wanted them close! Beckoned them to opened arms; but they sat expressionless; they were never thought to taste of dark cherries.

Really be

2009-06-30T08:38:00.000-07:00

They're petals on the ground
NO! leaves...
NO! sand...
Slipping from my hands with a frown

I cannot face love
For love has no face
Separated! Body and mind
Intertwined in secret distance and space

You lend me pleasure
I spare you pain
No ink or blood can take away this stain!

It was the 'you' in them
not the them with me...
that strayed me from my destiny...
I've loved you forever; I'll love you until!
i've loved you then and i always will.

This grain for her, her and her
out of sight, out of mind
but always in my heart!
Always! like a thorn in my flesh!

Each grain has called for its own
the sands pull wider at my hands, chest and heart

Sipped in the glass of discontent
the virus of love for flesh and fulfillment
"But for a moment..."
Integrating me! living whole in their collective thoughts...
If ever...!!

NEVER! have i been the same
since the day i've started that game
Tell me once! or let me see
what true love can really be

Now time eternal

2009-06-24T16:38:00.000-07:00

They've touched!
East and west...Twirling the world to their new form
Rains have scattered among desserts, taking pleasure in kissing the dried sands.

The flower praises the skies upon its opening
forever it has searched in still! Awaiting its arrival.

The beautiful passion steams eternally in time.
Wringing dry the substance of such a long yet short kiss

All around froze; as hope met faith
ice met fire ridding all fears...
the steam of pleasure fills the air

The east wind captures pockets of fresh bliss westward
Living on its every atom; reigniting a flame that laid years dormant.

Would the world ever be the same again
how can the sun set and rise if we're together?

Their eyes gave way to suit the world at present
Maybe in our perfect world we'll meet again...
as for now we'll take the time in this eternity to wallow in ecstasy

Patiently he waits

2009-06-24T16:19:00.000-07:00

The master of none;
sits between the master less, scheming his next move.
Edged by want! his playing lips kisses the ear of those listening

Wonderers of time themselves
the lining of cloudless skies

Easily his wings and winds gather the remains of love.
Distantly and carefree; flinging them together to map his path

Eagerly they cling to his breath
drawing substance and lust to make them flesh.
Bathing slowly in his caress; he is patient towards the reincarnation

As they dance as concubines for the feast
The master of none is filled with desire.
Painting images of "next"
shadows of wrenching hands to sheets and fang like teeth sinking pleasurably into the contours of his neck

"The feast if nigh!"
Body less feelings sway and twist before him stimulating his every sense...

"Taste of my wine" he utters;
with lips dripping with sweet melodies
eyes filled with lust and hands beckoning to embrace.

"ALAS!" The wonderers of time give way to their wills.
Releasing that unknown self
only to sacrifice their very being of existence yet again.

"I've waited for you" chuckled the grinning master of none

I've groomed you from such a time
find refuge in my embrace
never again shall you find yourself!
you're lost forever in my embrace.

The Man

2009-06-24T15:56:00.000-07:00

The man...
walks the road alone...
surrounded by nothing
nothing but nature.

The man...
trips and falls to the ground
surrounded by dirt and hard rocks
His "plight"...to get up

The man...
attempts to rise
pushing hard to the ground
he gets up..."Dinged"

The man...
walks the road alone...
no longer clean...
but now carries the stain of previous steps

The man...
Willing to rid himself of the unclean
but would have to expose his flesh to the elements

ALONE...
the man walks;
ALONE!... the man walks
Yet still he won't bare his soul, his skin, his intention

The man...
still walks alone
STAINED by his own CHOICE!